Other times...

... I feel like I'm already dead.

Sometimes...

... I just want to die.

Sleep cycles

I'll never understand it... Sometimes for weeks on end I can sleep normally and be horribly tired, then other times for a week or two I'll only sleep like an hour or two a night and still be energetic and awake and ready for anything. This past week has most definitely been the latter. It's insanity. Plain and simple. God bless bipolar disorder. :-P

Pride '08 in DC

That was so awesome! The parade was amazing, and the festival was pretty cool. Didn't walk around too much at the festival because we were tired, but the performances at the main stage were great. I cheered at the top of my lungs for the Bloom float in the parade. :)

Distant.

I feel so detached. Nothing is real right now, and I don't know why. It's very unsettling. I hate this feeling... It's like I'm stuck in a horrible nightmare. I'm not even sure if any of this is really happening right now. I think it is, but it doesn't feel like it. I wish there was some way to make it stop, to reconnect and make things feel real again. At least to feel like I'm real again. *sigh*

And back again.

That was odd. I was really down yesterday morning and got better later, and now I'm back to feeling pretty good. Crazy mood swings. :)

...

The world is a dark, horrible place.