Meh.

I'm so lost. I just feel like my entire life is hopeless, pathetic, useless. I'm so weak. I'm ashamed of everything about myself, especially the sorry, worthless way I handle things. I can't deal with anything, all I can ever do is try to run away, and it never works. One day my lamentable attempts to cope will destroy me, and I'm almost waiting for it. It's just too much, I can't take it. Everyone else survives it perfectly fine, I know, but I just can't. I'm broken, damaged, a complete failure as a human being. I don't understand how people carry on like this, yet I'm falling apart. It's not like I have such a horrible life, people deal with far worse than I do and make it, why am I so feeble that I can't deal with anything? People would be better off if they'd just accept how pitiful and inferior I am and leave me to die. Don't misunderstand me, I don't want to die. I just don't think I deserve life. I should never have existed in the first place. I'm defective, a waste of flesh. Why anyone even cares, I can't even begin to understand. I just wish everyone knew how profoundly sorry I am for wasting their time by being.