Change.

I'm glad I'm me. My ability to deal with things, to turn the other cheek, to forgive and forget never ceases to surprise me. I came to the realization today that I no longer harbor any negative feelings toward my ex and her new boyfriend. It's all good. I was never that upset with them (except when I was in a bad mood anyway) but now it honestly doesn't bother me anymore. I just hope they both can get past it and we can still be friends. I know he can, and I think he has, but I'm not so sure about her. I think she still has a lot of repressed feelings there, and it seems to create some tension. I'm sure part of it is her strangely skewed view of me, and part of it is just her normal tendency to repress everything and let her feelings slowly destroy her. I just hope one day she'll get better at dealing with her feelings and get past them. There's so much good in her, if only she wasn't so bitter and resentful at the world, and she could get over the hate and be the good person she really is if she could just learn to deal with things instead of lying to herself. Unfortunately, there's nothing I can do, it's something she'll have to face on her own.
On a different note, I've been doing much better at being confident. I'm slowly learning to like myself, instead of always focusing on my shortcomings. I've noticed people are responding very positively to the change as well, which helps encourage me. Now I just need to get out more. :)