Self-help

I'm beginning to wonder if there is any hope for me living without medication. I've been managing for these past several months, but I wonder if it's worth it. I just don't like things messing with my mind, it's messed up enough as it is, and I don't want to spend years finding the "right" combination of pills just to function. I wish there was a good therapist I could see around here, but unfortunately I've yet to find one that wouldn't just tell me to get back on the pills. *sigh* Then again, the medication wasn't working before, and from everything I've read there's a VERY high chance that the pills won't ever work, because of how quickly my episodes cycle.